OF REJECTION,AND PICKING UP THE BROKEN PIECES..

I saw it coming,but like the proverbial ostrich i buried my head in the sand.Hoping i will wake up from this dream.Well i never did,and what happened was a rollercoster, that turned my life upside down.Well, one cold july i received i text 'its over and further warned no matter what that was final.I was crushed beyond repair.What followed were long nights filled with tears.My appetite went north,i was nauseous.I could not keep everything down.Needless to say,within the next few weeks i lost 5 kgs,from 47 to 42,that was so noticeable.I became so dark and people could always stop and ask me.'whats wrong you?''Its because of the cold weather in Meru',i would lie.I so well knew what was ailing me.In a twist of events I learnt a wedding was only a few months away.So i was a fool all along.'Nilicheswa' .But i had to rise up and face this monster called REJECTION.And sure i did.I spent the next few weeks crying alot listening to sad music and watching sad movies.But sadly ,this was only the first of many tear -inducing rejections.Since then, i've been turned down for jobs,promotions,etc.And each time it still stings and i wonder,"why didn't this work out Lord,am doing all things right.

I pray
Read my Bible.
Tithe regularly.
And i serve you God.
Doesn't that mean i should be in the VIP line retrieve my blessings.It wasn't until i heard a sermon on rejection that i realized,Jesus gives us a strategy to heal f
from the hurt of rejection in Matthew 10 and Luke 9.
He knew that we'd be facing a mean world.And He tells us John 16:33,in this world you will have trouble.
Based on these verses here are three ways i learned to heal and pick my broken pieces.
Before that the first thing is Cry a river,build a bridge and walk over it.Let loose and mourn.Tears have a way of healing a broken soul.

BRUSH OFF BITTERNESS
"And whoever will not receive you,when you go out of that city,shake off the very dust from your feet as a testimony against them.Luke 9:5.Jesus explains to the disciples to brush off the residue of rejection and keep moving forward.
We can't allow rejection to fester and become bitterness.
I had to come to the realization(after several months)that my then boyfriend just didn't want to be with me,and he never really loved me as i thought.
I moved forward by being the best i can be in every aspect.Within no time i regained the old self me.My glow was back, i rededicated my life again to Christ because i harbored a lot of bitterness towards this person and freely forgave him for hurting me all along.Sometimes a golden heart just does that.
We are a living testimony against those that reject us,when we keep moving towards the plan God has for us.

Don't Be Held Hostage.
'When they persecute you in this city,flee to another,(Matthwe10:23).The next thing Jesus tells them to do is move on to another city.Sometimes,we just have to put some distance between us and the hurt we've endured.
I thank God,i was far from Nairobi,there was no way i would try to repair the relationship and anyway there was little i could have done with an upcoming wedding.
We can't let ourselves be held hostage by wondering why!
Why did i get laid off?
Why didn't i get that promotion?
Why did he choose her?
We have to be ready for the next door the Lord wants to open.

Be Open To The Next Possibility.
'So they departed and went through the towns,preaching the gospel and healing everywhere.Luke 9:6.
To me,this verse indicates that we should always be asking the Lord.'What's next'The disciples didn't stop when one town rejected them.The Bible says they went everywhere ,No matter,what door closes,God always has another opportunity.Sometimes God will break our hearts,so that HE can blow our minds.And this is so true because,i think i hit the jackpot.I can hear the bells ringing.
During that time,a friend while comforting me told me,one day you will be glad that it happened,it never made sense that time.But now it does,Am so glad it hapened,because i have learned so much more and found real happiness.

Rejection is part of life,but if we learn to apply Jesus strategy for overcoming,we don't have to carry the wounds of rejection for a lifetime.

I hope i touched a heart!

Its Nzisa.

TIME TO BREAK YOUR GLASS CEILING

I am writing this post for me,for people like me who sometimes feel they can not make it,we sometimes feel that way ,do we?But it is all possible.Right now am in a dilemma ,am supposed to make a choice but i have that but....

Goldfish are said to have a shallow,forgetful minds.One scientist put two goldfish in a tank with a glass wall separating them in the middle.The fish often swam to the middle and hit their noses.Soon enough they recognized that there was a barrier,so they swam and stopped just short of hitting the wall.One day the scientist removed the glass wall and observed the fish,they never swam beyond the halfway point because they had trained their minds to recognize the wall,and even though it seemed invisible,they didn't realize the wall had gone.

It's often easier to blame other people for our misfortunes and limitations;we have invisible walls all over our lives.It's the job that we need to be secure in,it's the relationship we can't quit because 'what will the people say',or the friend we can't drop because they need us.Excuses and perceptions that we create all over our lives because we can't get beyond what we've conditioned our minds to do-underachieve.How many times have you told yourself,oh,i don't have the money,i can't start that business,it won't help anyway.Or,oh,I'm never going to find another guy who loves me as much as this one does-even with his faults when he treats me like a doormat.It's time we forget about the devil we know and find out whether there are angels we don't know existing out there.

How do you know that you live within invisible walls?Just listen to how you speak to how you speak to yourself,before you hear others.You'll figure out that you are the first one to bring yourself down;no one has to do it.For you have learned to undermine your abilities and limit yourself to the point your life is at currently.Darling,when they told you to grow roots,they didn't say you shouldn't spread your branches.

The people we think as overachievers are simply human like us,who just reach out and grab the next small or big opportunity that life hands them.They take the risk and reap the rewards.I a not saying everything you try will be rosy,but you will either learn a a lesson or be successful.Are you ready to break your own glass ceiling?Because i have already broken mine.

It's Nzisa.

Had I Known What I Know Now,It is The Small Things In Life That Really Matter;

My birthday was just the other day.Oh,how time flies!I feel old,yet young.I am standing in front of the mirror,looking,admiring,scrutinizing,even frowning at my image.I study the lines at my face,accrued from moments of both happiness and grief.I look at now my wisened eyes,happy,yet sad.I have lived a full life.I have achieved quite a lot too.Yet i have regrets here and there.And i have a story to tell.

I remember a time when a friend would tell me how interesting i was,that they could write a book about me.Maybe it is time to do that,i muse.Then i remember the friend who totally put me down;heartbroken,i spent sleepless nights.My minds wanders to a time when i was terribly young and naive.Then I was untainted-i wore tinted glasses,whose colour i chose to see my life through.

Had i known what i know now,i would kick myself hard for not taking up that job offer just because it was out of the town and i was worried about how i was going to survive without familiar faces around me.

Had i known what i know now,i would have laughed harder and cried when i felt like it,knowing that it was okay.

I would have said 'NO' that offer that i really did not fancy,but which i felt obliged to say 'YES' to.I would have stood up for myself,not caring what others had to say.

Had i known what i now know,i would not have feared the unknown.I would meet each experience with the excitement and wander that only a child seems to posses.I would have lived each day like it was my last.

Had i known then,what i know now,i would have appreciated all types of weather,i would basked in the sun,soaking in the rays and come rain,i would have welcomed it,even play in it.Then i would have felt the grass with my bare feet.I would have listened to the trees sway in the wind.I would have stopped my business and stared in the horizon,just because.

I have cheered my team louder,hitting the ball hard and losing myself in the game.I would have welcomed the challenge to climb that mountain,to build that fire,to go for that marathon.

Had i known what i know now,i would have been considerate,yet firm about my needs.I would have taken disappointments in my stride,knowing that they come and go.I would have been more kind and honest to myself and others.I would have enjoyed the experiences of my school days more,knowing that would be the only time i would be at a par with my classmates.


Lastly i would have loved with all my mighty and with no conditions at that.I would have been more forgiving.I would have been more daring and adventurous.I would have savored in the joy of making a home;i would have drunk in the love i saw in a child's eyes and i would have appreciated that it is the small things in life that really matters like a stranger's kindness.


But all is not lost.I have my entire future in front of me,to live as now i wish.Beginning now,im starting my life all over again.Because now i know.

So wish me well...From a golden heart.

Its Nzisa.